I am overprotective. Too much. :C

I have to change. :'(

I'm too emotional. I need to control my temper. I just lost it today.


=(

When you grieve, you really grieve alone. All of your feelings, painful ones especially, can only be felt and experienced by you. It doesn't matter whether you have family or a boyfriend or friends, in the end you just feel the pain.

Relationships are never easy...nothing is in life as you grow older. The hardest part is to really decide how to live your life based on the circumstances that you're in...you can't control it all the time.

But it's sad isn't it? When you feel so alone, and you feel so hopeless. You just can't do anything but adapt to life.

Listening to dramatic Korean songs in the morning immediately after you wake up is nice/not nice. Nice because it makes you release your distress, not nice because it makes you feel more emotional. Ah, the contradiction.

Anyway, Criminal Minds is still my current favourite TV show although it can get pretty repetitive at times. I used to not like Aaron Hotchner and Emily Prentiss, but I actually like the whole team now. Even the new supervisory special agent, David Rossi. :) I watch Criminal Minds when I'm bored with life, I watch it when I'm upset, I even watch it when I just want to relax...But I'm already on my last CD of season 4. I need season 5!

By the way, I came across a girl's blog, whose name is Samantha Halley and I thought she really had some quotes that appealed to me. Even her blog as a whole was interesting. Her quotes reminded me of Criminal Minds, they always had quotes in every episode...I love quotes.

'Once you are real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand.'
'Such was the power of the beauty inside her that winter turned to spring in her path and flowers grew in her footsteps.'

I especially love one of the things she was saying on her tattoo post. Here's a snippet of it. Hopefully this isn't illegal. I did quote her! >_<'' "I got a new tattoo on my arm. It says "The first star we see may not be a star." It's meant to remind me not to jump to conclusions and to think through things rationally."

I like what she was saying here because I think that really shook me.

Which reminds me, I still have loads of work to do despite the fact that it's only my first year in university. :(

University = minus the teachers nagging you around, more flexibility (which actually means more time to study on your own) which isn't necessarily a good thing if you aren't disciplined enough, less time to actually make good friends since everyone's scattered, extra readings to do...the worst part of university is it kills you silently IF you don't do your work and study consistently, because you realise after a whole semester of readings and lectures and tutorial work, that your exams are just around the corner.

I mean it hasn't happened to me yet, thank God, but I can just imagine what it will be like during SWOTVAC. Even as I try to cope with the amount of work I have now, it can be or is overwhelming.

I better get work done now!!!

Rodney's birthday tonight, going to Crown to celebrate and then probably a short trip to Gavin's after that. Argh, curfews. My curfew is ridiculously early. I mean it. For an 18 year old, it is retardedly early. 10pm. And it's okay for my younger brother to come back at 11 something every Friday night. Screw my freedom.

'Same shit, different day.'
- Pua

Funny how such a short sentence can be so true in explaining how one feels about some of their shit days in life.

ONE thing is definitely for sure, I have a pretty massive cavity on my top left molar that is hurting more and more. Shit?

Justine is back! :) After a year and a bit more, I suddenly decided to delete all my previous posts and restart.

I'm currently experiencing 'flutterflies' inside me, music I enjoy listening to just makes me feel that way. It's quite insane that I'm up at 2am feeling this way instead of sleeping. I know I should be sleeping because it's pretty hot, but the air conditioner is turned on for 1 hour to cool the house. So if I don't sleep soon, I'd be having a hard time sleeping in the heat later. >.<

Anyway, who watches Criminal Minds? I thought CSI Vegas was awesome, but Criminal Minds is the bomb! Ah, anyway if you watch it, I just wanna say that it's getting more interesting and addictive as I watch more episodes. I think Reid is so cute, he's so innocent and smart, he has the 'adorkable' appeal. Morgan's hot and hot-tempered, and that's why he's yum. Garcia is cool, JJ is a pretty Barbie doll who doesn't act like a bitch, thank you to the scriptwriter. Gideon is cute too, very charismatic in his own way. They're pretty much the characters I care about. There's still Aaron Hotchner, Emily Prentiss and the previous ultra bitch Elle Greenaway who I don't pay much attention to that much. I don't really like these three characters. Okay, before I start rambling on, those who hasn't come across Criminal Minds should watch it!